Leviticus 16:1-34 · The Day of Atonement
Holy Goat!
Leviticus 16:1-34, John 20:24-31
Sermon
by Lori Wagner
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Hide and seek is everyone’s favorite game as a child. And as an adult. What irony that children play and pretend to hide, then are delighted to be discovered and come out of hiding. But adults hide for real! And for very different reasons! We may not physically hide. But can we emotionally and spiritually hide! And we have no intention of being discovered!

For any number of reasons, we adults find it extremely hard to allow anyone to discover the deep reaches and recesses of our souls. We adults find it even harder to come out of hiding. Our hiding places shield us from emotional harm. At least that’s what we think. Our hiding places offer safety, security, assurance, calm. But they can also keep us from experiencing the beauty of the world, the intimacy of relationships, the confidence to try new things, the peace in our hearts to grow and commit.

The impulse to hide seems to develop through our growing years as we accumulate negative experiences or fearful memories. These usually come from traumatic events or upsetting encounters. As a result, insecurities engulf us. These insecurities can later be triggered when faced with someone who gets too close, or when we are surprised or startled by something unknown or new. To have doubts and fears about our world helps us to be cautious in the face of possible danger. Doubt can protect! It’s our built-in security system. But often doubt can go into overdrive. It’s when we are in overdrive that our built-in-protection system prevents us from experiencing and recognizing what is good and true and beautiful in our lives.

Sometimes, to come out of hiding means to take a risk. To summon us out of our hiding places, we need “proof” that the coast is clear. Is that puddle water, or ice? Instead of jumping right in, we extend a finger or a foot. Test it out. Ice. Hard. Safe. Okay!

We don’t want to believe and get our hopes up only to have them dashed again!

When a child looks forward to a birthday party and is promised a wonderful day, and then for some reason, the celebration must be canceled, there is a huge let-down from excitement to loss and disappointment. When promised another date, and the excitement again rises, and plans are made, but then when it is canceled again, disillusionment begins, doubt creeps in about the nature of promises --or worse, the reality of one’s worthiness. When it happens again a third time –cynicism and disbelief become the norm. When a fourth promise arises, it is dismissed, disregarded, not even given the time of day. One cannot continue to have hopes dashed without paying the consequences of grief.

Next time a promise is made, that child will want proof! Suspicion and doubt will cast its long shadow until there is reason to believe.

I imagine Thomas must have been feeling something like that by the time he arrived that day in Jerusalem and locked the door behind him. All the disciples felt discouraged after Jesus’ death. They were on the ride of their lives while Jesus was alive! So expectant. So empowered.

Then, just when they anticipated the ultimate victory –Jesus died. No, he was killed, brutally. And their hopes and dreams were killed alongside Him.

Thomas isn’t the only one to experience doubt, depression, disillusionment, discouragement in the wake of Jesus’ death. They all did. Even when the women returned with the good news from the tomb about Jesus’ resurrection, the disciples really didn’t believe them.

Jesus returns in His resurrection appearances to assure His disciples that the mission is not dead but only beginning. Jesus is not dead, but only now ascending. The greatest gift is yet to come in the power of the Holy Spirit.

But when Jesus appears to the disciples sitting shiva in their locked room that first time, Thomas is not among them. We don’t know why. But we know, he joins them later.

In one of the greatest examples of Jesus’ grace and tenderness, Jesus comes back again to that same locked room, just for Thomas’s benefit. No disciple left behind! It sounds like an episode of Trolls. That’s their shouting cry--“No troll left behind!”

Jesus cannot leave Thomas hiding, locked in his grief, discouraged and doubting. Jesus comes to his rescue.

The image of the “locked room” is such a powerful one in these stories. For the disciples truly are in lock down. They are locked down in their grief. They are literally sitting shiva for Jesus after his death, fearing to exit their house. They have no idea if anyone will put a hit on their heads too. They are easily recognizable as Jesus’ closest followers. His death had stunned them. It was brutal to watch. Frightening and terrifying to imagine. For them, the mission had died with their master, and they were hiding in fear and doubt about what they were to do next.

Then Jesus appears.

“Peace be with you!” is his greeting both times. But this is no mere greeting. It is a pronouncement. And it stuns them out of their misery.

In that close encounter, Jesus removes their fear. Jesus assuages their doubt. Jesus revives them for mission. Jesus gives them hope, wholeness, and at-one-ment –with each other and with Him.

The mindset of the disciples in this locked room before Jesus appears as opposed to the upper room on Pentecost is so radically different. Why? Because of Jesus’ post-resurrection appearance.

Thomas Didymus (the twin) is an interesting choice of disciple for this second visit. For the encounter mirrors and completes an “act of atonement” as explained in Leviticus which involves not one but two goats –one a sacrificial goat, and another, a scape goat.

Jesus enacts and embodies both.

In the Hebrew act of atonement described in Leviticus, one goat is sacrificed; the other goat is used as a scape goat. Hands are laid upon its head, infusing the scapegoat with the sins of all, and then it is released alive into the wilderness to carry off the remaining sins of the people into oblivion, so that the community of faith can be freed.

Jesus plays both roles in His atonement of humankind. On one hand, his death on the cross signifies the shedding of blood for sins committed. On the other, his invitation to Thomas to touch his wounds releases Thomas of his remaining doubt, issuing in his atonement both as a disciple and an apostle. This is the power of the living and resurrected Jesus --who has the power still today to release us from our sins by the power of His resurrection. Jesus continues to take our doubt, terror, and trembling upon Himself, so that we can be put at peace. "Peace be upon you," is Jesus' resurrection message.

In Jesus’ encounter with Thomas, Thomas’ doubts are removed and placed upon Jesus’ wounded side…and are carried off into Eternity. Thomas is freed from hiding, and from his doubt, as are all of the disciples. They now will spend time waiting for the Holy Spirit’s gift. Their hope and excitement has been restored and renewed. Their faith has been uncovered, unlocked, and unbound. They have seen the proof in the pudding! Jesus lives! Their faith in God is renewed.

With his touch, Jesus does not imbue Thomas with faith, but renews his faith. Faith he already has. But it has been cloaked in fear, covered in doubt. Jesus removes from Thomas his anxiety, his mistrust, his confusion, and his hesitation. He relieves Thomas of his never-ending vicious circle of uncertainty and leaves him at peace. For peace is what Jesus offers us.

Jesus releases us from the captivity of our doubt, frees us from our places of anxiety, and restores us to shalom.

We all get locked into vicious cycles of uncertainty. I like to call it our OCD: our place of Overwhelming Chronic Doubt! Our OCD place is when we feel we’ve failed. Our OCD place is when we feel God doesn’t listen. Our OCD place is when we tried too many times. When things didn’t go the ways we hoped. When we have been rejected, judged, or cast out. When we doubt if Jesus can really help.

Chronic doubt is doubt that lasts a long time, sometimes a lifetime. Compounded doubt. Residual doubt. Overwhelming doubt. For some, that doubt becomes a chronic condition. For some, who feel the church has failed them, or God has failed them, or Jesus is never going to show them a way out of their current place in life, doubt has made a permanent home in the crooks and crannies of their hearts.

OCD or Overwhelming Chronic Doubt is insidious. It locks people out. It locks people in. It locks Jesus out too. It’s a place of no calm. Doubt is like a self-imposed prison from which we don’t want to escape for fear of something worse that we don’t want to face.

Overwhelming Chronic Doubt (OCD) is just that –overwhelming and chronic and debilitatingly doubting. When overwhelmed, we cannot come out of hiding, even if we wanted to.

There’s a story of a boy who was playing hide and seek. He thought he would trick his sister, so he climbed into the dryer, and closed the door. Panicked, he shouted, but no one could hear him. Only later was he rescued when his father found him and opened the door. A dryer has no latch on the inside. Only on the outside. You can climb in. But when you shut the door, you can no longer climb out by yourself.

That’s what overwhelming chronic doubt does to our lives. It shuts us in, like the disciples in their locked down room, so that we can’t see any way to freedom, or way back into life.

But Jesus is the ultimate rescuer. Jesus IS the way, the truth, and the life. When we get into that place of OCD doubt –Jesus is the one who opens that door and lets us out.

He does it by letting us touch him, by honoring our doubts. Jesus is not some far away God. He is present. He is touchable. His salvation is real.

You know the drill. Your child has a nightmare. What do you do? You look under the bed. You open the closet door. You check behind the drapes. You secure the windows. You show your child there is . .. No monsters! It’s safe to come out.

Jesus does not wag a finger at Thomas because he needed proof. He points his finger to his wounds and invites Thomas to put his hand there. When he does touch the wounds, all of Thomas’ doubts and fears, discouragements and despair, is taken from him. Jesus bears that doubt for him instead.

Jesus knows how to unlock our deepest fears, to anticipate our doubts, to give us what we need so we can step back into the world, take our place among the others, and continue to proclaim his name as Victor over sin, death, and even doubt!

Jesus meets us where we are. Jesus dispels all that keeps us from coming out of hiding and into the world.

This is Jesus’ gift of atonement, not just for sins past, but for sins present --all of our human fears, doubts, disillusionment, and worry. Jesus takes it all upon Himself and releases it into Eternity, so that we can be at peace, at ONE with God again.

“Peace be with you!” Jesus says.

“Peace…be with you.”


Based on the Story Lectionary

Major Text

The Goat of Atonement (Leviticus 16:20-22)

John’s Witness to Jesus’ Post-Resurrection Appearance to Thomas Didymus (20:24-29)

Minor Text

Rebekah Tricks Isaac into Blessing Jacob Instead of Esau By Touching Goat Skin (Genesis 27)

Massah and Meribah (Exodus 17:1-7 and Numbers 20)

The Story of Gideon’s Conversations with God and the Sign of the Fleece (Judges 6)

Psalm 18: Praise Be the Rock

Psalm 25: In You I Put My Trust

Psalm 34: Taste and See that the Lord is Good

Psalm 42: Put Hope in God

Psalm 98: The Lord Has Made His Salvation Known

Psalm 103: Praise the Lord My Soul

Psalm 135: God’s Signs

Paul Preaches: Christ Crucified is Our Wisdom (1 Corinthians 1:18-31)

The Goat of Atonement

“When Aaron has finished making atonement for the Most Holy Place, the tent of meeting and the altar, he shall bring forward the live goat. He is to lay both hands on the head of the live goat and confess over it all the wickedness and rebellion of the Israelites—all their sins—and put them on the goat’s head. He shall send the goat away into the wilderness in the care of someone appointed for the task. The goat will carry on itself all their sins to a remote place; and the man shall release it in the wilderness.

The Atonement of Thomas

Now Thomas (also known as Didymus, one of the Twelve, was not with the disciples when Jesus came. So, the other disciples told him, “We have seen the Lord!”

But he said to them, “Unless I see the nail marks in his hands and put my finger where the nails were, and put my hand into his side, I will not believe.”

A week later his disciples were in the house again, and Thomas was with them. Though the doors were locked, Jesus came and stood among them and said, “Peace be with you!”

Then he said to Thomas, “Put your finger here; see my hands. Reach out your hand and put it into my side. Stop doubting and believe.”

Thomas said to him, “My Lord and my God!”

Then Jesus told him, “Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.”

Image Exegesis: Goats and Goat Skins

A scape goat is one that we project our unwanted blame upon. The name comes from Leviticus, in which two goats are needed for the Day of Atonement. One is sacrificed, its blood spilled to atone for the sins of the people. But another has sins cast upon it in a ritual, and then it is released into the wilderness live, taking the sins of the community with it!

The scape goat is in a sense an escape goat, which allows us to escape the prisons of our doubt and anxiety, by taking them from us and freeing us of the burden. Likewise, a goat skin can represent that kind of “sin” -- a kind of clothing of doubt/sin that can overlay our own authenticity.

Often as Christians, we define sin as something intentional worth chastisement, a failing or a failure, a wrong or fault or a kind of “bad-ness.” This is a Christianization of the way Jesus as a Jew would have looked at sin.

Sin in the Hebrew scriptures is not always a result of fault. Often it is simply the condition of “hiding” in some way from self, God, the world, and others. Sin may not always even have at all to do with the fault of the person bearing it. Some sins could be imposed upon one. This kind of sin is simply the result of humanness –caused by emotions such as fear, doubt, disillusionment, disappointment, mistrust, or discouragement. These are not errors worthy of punishment. But they are a part of the human condition, which can at times, keep us locked in cycles of anxiety or depression, keep us from intimate relationships, separate us from our truth, keep us confined to a smaller view of God than what is true and available to us.

Sin is anything that separates us from God. It can be a “wall” we build, a cave we hide in (or a locked room), or the false conceptions that we clothe ourselves in that keep us from seeing Jesus even when He’s right in front of our eyes.

A prominent metaphor for this kind of “sin” in scripture is the goatskin, or the goat.

In the story of Jacob and Esau, Jacob puts the skins of goats upon him as he visits with his blind father, Isaac. He is not being authentic, but he is “hiding” in the skin of deception. This “covering” that is not the clothing of righteousness (the clothing bestowed upon us by God), but the clothing of sin, which in turn, casts doubt upon Jacob’s authentic identity as a covenant carrier of God. Later, he would need to wrestle with himself and God in order to feel good again “in his own skin.”

In the story of Gideon, goat skins serve as an unveiling of God’s true presence. The skins themselves, put forth by Gideon reflect his feelings of doubt and uncertainty about God’s support. They are a “test” of sorts for Gideon’s doubts. God patiently assures Gideon. God’s sign upon the skins removes Gideon’s fears. By laying the skins on the threshing floor (the metaphor for a place of decision or judgement….or proof), Gideon lays out his doubts before God to be assured. Gideon is not chastised. He is not labeled “bad” or faulty. What we see, similar to the story in Jonah, is a patient and loving and assuring God, who is prepared to take away/remove the sins/doubts of humankind gently and kindly.

We see a similar story in Thomas. Jesus arrives within a “locked room” (representing a hiding metaphor, or a metaphor of a prison of doubt, from which the disciples cannot escape without assistance). But Thomas is most conflicted. However, even though Thomas is the only one expressing his doubt, it’s clear that the other disciples are not harbingers of courage. They are still cowering in the locked room, afraid to emerge.

This scripture story reveals a miracle of healing and atonement on the part of Jesus. But instead of Jesus’ laying hands upon someone, Thomas lays his hands upon Jesus, releasing his doubt and fear into the wound that is Jesus’ sacrificial sign.

In the gospel story, Jesus is not overtly named a “goat;” however, this seems a hidden metaphor (what I call an invisible metaphor) in that the event carries parallel meaning. Instead of a goat skin covering Thomas literally, we see that Thomas’ person, his disciplehood, his person is shrouded in doubt. Hiding in a “locked room,” he is trapped in his doubt. He cannot be the authentic apostle he is called to be until his faith is released from this binding of doubt covering him. His “sin” (only the real human condition, expected in this situation, of doubt, fear, and disillusionment) is keeping him from seeing Jesus, from seeing Jesus resurrected! From seeing the Truth. His eyes are blinded by his doubt. He is seeing with goatskin eyes.

When Jesus however invites Thomas to touch his wounds, his body, his skin, to lay his hands upon him, Thomas’ fears and doubts fall away. As the “scape goat” of atonement, the resurrected Jesus takes on/takes away Thomas’ impediments that keep from from truth, from relationship, from faith, from resurrection reality. And Thomas sees. Therefore, he declares in revelatory surprise, “My Lord, and My God!”

The goatskin veil has been lifted! Has been taken away. And when Jesus departs, He takes those “sins,” those false veils with Him (symbolized by his wounds) into Eternity.

I believe that the “goat” and “goatskin” is lost at times, because we tend to associate the “goat” only as an opposite to the lamb in Jesus’ parable of sheep and goats. However, the meaning can also serve in the same metaphorical genre in all of scriptures’ “goat” references.

Just as in scripture, yeast can have both a positive and negative meaning, revealing a broader understanding of what it means to have “yeast” of one kind or another within, so also in the scriptures, there can be a positive and negative meaning of goat. In the broader meaning, the goat or goat skin is that which has sin laid upon it/ or that which represents sin of the human condition.

In scriptures such as Daniel, in which the goat can be a foreign entity, that is, not Jewish (in that sense, it is sinful) or in the case of a goat skin covering the skin of Jacob (representing the sin clothing him at that moment of deception), the goat is a negative representation. In the person of Jesus as scape goat, the “sins” are still laid upon Him (in the metaphor of the goat), but in the person of Jesus, He has the power of redemption. Instead of retreating into a wilderness, Jesus as scape goat takes the sins of humanity with Him into Eternity. In a sense too, the wounds of Jesus represent that sin. When Thomas touches Jesus’ skin, his own doubt and sin is released, and He is atoned, restored.

In this scripture, Jesus is not infusing him with faith. Thomas already has faith. It has just been covered with sin. He is in hiding with the others, but his hiddenness runs deeper. He has clothed himself in doubt and fear, mistrust, and anxiety over the death of Jesus. What Jesus does is remove that doubt, freeing Thomas of that which keeps him locked in.

When Jesus departs, Thomas’ doubts depart with Him and are taken into Eternity. Thomas’ door has again been opened. The “way” is again clear to him. And he is restored into the community of faith.

“Peace be with you!” declares Jesus. In his visitation, he has restored peace to the disciples’ troubled souls –especially to Thomas, by helping him in his at-one-ment. As a result of Jesus’ gift of atonement, Thomas is restored as disciple and apostle.

Jesus is both goats of Leviticus. On one hand, Jesus in his death on the cross atones by His blood for the sins of the world committed. But the Living and Resurrected Jesus continues to atone for our sins of human condition by taking our sins upon Himself in a Holy Spirit atonement.

One is assured in the Death of Jesus; the other is continually assured in the Livingness of Jesus –in the Resurrection power of Jesus. This is the way we are continually atoned within what Wesley called our means of grace.

Most of the time, our “sins” are sins of hiding –that which separates us in some way from our relationships, ourselves, from God. We can so astutely “hide” from truth (our truth and Jesus’ truth). Whether we describe our hiding as a “locked room” from which we cannot dare to exit, or a goatskin (a false skin) that we present to the world instead of our authentic self, or a cave of depression in which we cower from the world and God –in all cases, these “separations” or “sins” require atonement. This is the continuing gift Jesus offers us by His presence in the form of the Holy Spirit.

Jesus allows us not only to see Him, but to touch Him. He allows us to place our fears and doubts upon Him, and He willingly takes them from us and upon Himself.

Jesus is ever wounded, as we must continually afflict Him. In Jesus’ great love, He offers the gift of atonement (at-one-ment) to us again, and again, and again, and as many times as we need and desire. There is nothing too great for Jesus to bear.

by Lori Wagner