Have you ever been stuck on a playground merry-go-round? You know how it goes. You start slow, pushing with your feet to gain more speed until you are running. Then you finally jump on to the spinning merry-go-round holding on for dear life. That is when you find yourself stuck. On the one hand, the centrifugal force of the spinning merry-go-round threatens to throw you off. On the other hand, you hold on for dear life to the railing because you are afraid of what might happen to you if you fall off. And round and round the merry-go-round goes. When it stops, nobody knows. You are stuck, caught between wanting to get off and unwilling to let go.
This experience of being stuck on a merry-go-round often seems to be the way we live our lives. We are stuck, unable to change the same old patterns. The same thing keeps happening over and over, and we can't seem to do anything about it. Perhaps some of you saw that comedy of some years ago, Ground Hog Day with Bill Murray of Saturday Night Live fame. In that film, the same thing keeps happening again and again in quite humorous ways and Bill Murray is unable to do anything about it.
Being stuck on a merry-go-round seems to be a picture of our lives. The biggest health crisis facing America today is obesity and the various kinds of health problems it precipitates. We spend billions of dollars on diet plans, exercise plans, and health club memberships, and yet the problem only seems to get worse. Such are the consequences of our success and our culture of affluence. We are stuck.
Our government is taxing the daylights out of tobacco. Millions are spent on campaigns to convince the public not to smoke. Yet, if everyone suddenly stopped smoking, the government would be out of billions of tax dollars. We penalize smoking, yet we can't afford to have smoking stop. We are stuck.
Our president announces that we are "addicted to oil." He wants us to break our addiction and use less. But millions of people's livelihoods are dependent upon the oil industry. If we use less, people will lose their jobs. We complain vociferously if prices go up at the gas pump. When prices go up, we use less, which is exactly what we will need to do to break our addiction. We are stuck.
This is basically a good country with many good people who have good hearts and good intentions. However, ever since World War II our country has been involved in one foreign misadventure after another. We go into places like Korea and Vietnam and Somalia and Iraq with noble intentions, hoping to end oppression and make this world a better place, but it always seems to blow up in our faces. We are stuck ... on a merry-go-round. Round and round we go and nothing seems to change. We are caught between being thrown off and holding on for dear life.
Saint Paul recognizes the same dilemma when he laments, "For I do not do that good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I do" (Romans 7:19). He, too, is stuck on the merry-go-round.
Faced with such a predicament we cry, "But I am only human!" as if that is somehow supposed to explain and exonerate us from this plight. Yes, we are only human ... and our humanity is exactly the problem. Paul recognizes that in today's text when he acknowledges that we all "live according to the flesh." We are stuck on the merry-go-round because we are stuck with our flesh.
Paul continually laments the afflictions of the sinful flesh. But what is this "flesh"? It is not merely the bones, sinew, and blood of our bodies. It is not merely the lust or gluttony or greed or other such fleshly inclinations that we more often than not associate with illicit sex. No, Paul is talking about something far more comprehensive here. Paul is talking about the totality of our existence. Paul is talking about that willful desire inside of us that does not fear and trust God and is determined to run life on its own terms in its own way at the expense of everyone else. We usually call it our sinful nature. I like to call it the "old you," the old Adam and Eve inside of everyone of us that always wants to "eat of the forbidden fruit" and be "like God" deciding for themselves what is good and what is evil. The sinful flesh, the old you's favorite last words are "me, myself, and I." The damnable thing about our flesh is that regardless of how hard we try to flee its hold on our lives, we can't. In fact, if we are honest with ourselves, we don't really want to. It is like being stuck on the merry-go-round, spinning round and round. We could get off if we would only let go. But we are too afraid and still hold on for dear life. "For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I do" (Romans 7:19).
The power of our "flesh" also drives us in another direction. G. K. Chesterton once said something like this: "When people cease to believe in God, they don't believe in nothing; they will believe in anything."
The old, sinful flesh would like us to believe that we can really be in charge of our own lives. We think in this supposedly enlightened age of ours that we don't need the superstitions and crutches of religion. We snicker at the fools who think they need gods and religions. We are beyond needing idols to appease and gods to worship. Ironically that is exactly what we still continue to do with our lives. Saint Augustine reminds us that the human heart will not rest until it rests in God. Prior to "rest (faith) in God," we are continually chasing one god after another. As Martin Luther reminds us in his explanation of the First Commandment in his Large Catechism, it is the very nature of human existence to "have a god." Whatever we fear, love, and trust, whatever enables us to get out of bed in the morning, whatever "rocks our boat," whatever we most fear losing and whatever we most desire, that is our "god." We humans cannot but "have a god." We are perpetually in search of meaning and purpose for our lives.
We are "incurably theolatrous." We have no choice in the matter. Yet, we must choose. We always have some reason to get out of bed in the morning. There is always something we live for and that keeps us from throwing in the towel. And that "reason" is our god and that god keeps us going. We poke fun of the natives dancing in the jungle before their stone and wooden idols, but we can't help but have them, too. They fill our lives every day and hour of the week. We are stuck on the merry-go-round ... and we can't get off.
What makes matters worse is that getting stuck on the merry-go-round is so easy. It always starts out so innocently. To our sinful flesh, idolatry always looks so appealing, so compelling, and so tempting. Just like the first "fall" into sin, the lure is not at all obvious. Temptation is never obvious. Temptation is rarely seen as something "naughty." Rarely do we deliberately intend to run off and be a bad boy or girl. On the contrary, the temptation always appears in what is good and beautiful. The "forbidden fruit" looked good to Adam and Eve. It was not at all ugly or repulsive. Idols would never win our trust if they were. There are always good reasons to eat of the "forbidden fruit."
Today we meet the "forbidden fruit" in the promises of career, job, family, patriotism, and even church. Just as it looked good to the eyes of Adam and Eve, it looks good to us, too. Throw in our lot with them, "fear, love, and trust them above anything else," and all will be well. Career is all that counts. Family is all that matters. Church activities become all consuming. But when these good things of creation become our ultimate concern, they will always disappoint us. They will always let us down. They will always enslave us. That is why they are "idols." That is why they are "false gods." They can't deliver.
We can't ever seem to escape. This is the ironclad "law of sin and death" (Romans 8:2) that never lets us out of its grip. Every time we look to see how we are doing, we always fall short. We can never do enough. We never seem to be able to believe enough, pray enough, love enough, or do enough. We never can seem to accomplish enough to put our doubts to rest. We never can escape the round and round of the merry-go-round.
It's like a story a pastor once told about her bishop. The man was glad he was humble, she said, because he knew that Christians should be humble. But then he was sad that he was glad that he was humble, because a person who is really humble shouldn't be glad about it. But then he was glad that he was sad that he was glad that he was humble, because at least when he was sad about being glad, he was humble again.1It's like a story a pastor once told about her bishop. The man was glad he was humble, she said, because he knew that Christians should be humble. But then he was sad that he was glad that he was humble, because a person who is really humble shouldn't be glad about it. But then he was glad that he was sad that he was glad that he was humble, because at least when he was sad about being glad, he was humble again.1
There is no escape. We are stuck. Round and round it goes and where it stops nobody knows. The harder we try to find some purpose, some cause, some meaning, some job, some relationship that can make our lives worthwhile and satisfying, the more we try to go it alone, the more we try to take charge of our lives, the more we reveal that we are in the grip of our sinful flesh and are hostile to God. We do not submit to God's law. In fact, we cannot. There is no way we can please God and the harder we try, the worse matters become. When we start "messin' around with God," when we have decided to thumb our nose at God and go our own way, we are truly playing with fire. When you mess with God and play with fire, you can only get burned.
After painting such a dismal picture, there is only one way we can get off the merry-go-round. God has got to get us off. And that is exactly what God does in Jesus Christ. Paul's stunning change in language in verse 9 reflects just that fact. He begins with a big "But." We may be stuck on the merry-go-round, but we do not need to remain there. With a startling announcement that almost seems to come out of the blue, Paul declares, "But you are not in the flesh; you are in the Spirit, since the Spirit of God dwells in you." (Notice all the present tense verbs!)
Here we are spinning around on the merry-go-round, always trying to do the right thing but never sure that we can. Round and round we go, wanting to get off but afraid to let go. God in Christ stops the merry-go-round. God in Christ loosens the grip of sin on our lives so that once the merry-go-round stops, we can let go and get off.
Every year at the beginning of the eighth grade confirmation class, I try to help the kids experience the good news of the gospel and how its startling announcement gets them off the merry-go-round of sinful flesh.
I ask them if anyone knows what a saint is. There is usually silence. So, I give them a definition. A saint is someone who is special. A saint is someone whom God has chosen. A saint is someone whom God has set aside. A saint is someone perfect, sinless.
Then I ask them the big question: Does anyone think he or she is a saint?
The class is silent for a few moments until one or two courageous souls hesitantly raise their hands. Then I quiz them. Do they really think they are saints? Do they really think they are perfect? I bet if I asked their brother or sister or parents, they would give me plenty of evidence to prove that they are not even close to being saints.
The few courageous souls drop their hands. They aren't so sure anymore.
I ask them again, "Whoever thinks you are a saint, raise your hand."
Aha! They now know what answer the pastor is looking for. The right answer is "No." No one is a saint. No one is perfect. So, no one raises a hand the second time I ask the question. They know better now. They have learned their lesson well.
Then it is time for the punch line. Then it is time for the surprises. Then it is time to make the outrageous announcement. Then it is time to let them experience the shock of the gospel. Then it is time to get them off the merry-go-round and shed the fear that they can never seem to leave: that they are not good enough, that they have not done enough, that they have not believed enough, or that they have not been humble enough.
"All of you — raise your hands!"
They all stare at one another in disbelief. What is the pastor doing? Has he gone off the deep end? This doesn't make any sense. Didn't he just tell us that no one was a saint?
"Yes, this doesn't make any sense, but this is the startling truth: You are all saints! You are perfect, sinless, the apple of God's eye — not because you are better than anyone else, not because you have not committed any sins, not because you have kept more commandments than any one else, and not even because you try hard and are sincere. You all know how that is a dead-end street. You all know how that is like being stuck on the merry-go-round, never knowing when you have done enough, wanting to get off but unable to let go."
"No, you are saints, because God says so! You are saints because God in Christ has halted the merry-go-round and declared that Jesus has suffered, died, and been raised for you. Your sins are forgiven! You can let go of the spinning merry-go-round, and let God give you what you thought you had to find for yourself: the certainty that you are good, the confidence that you are right, and the assurance that you are loved. In short, you are somebody. You are a saint, not because of what you did but because of what God did in Christ for you. And you get to believe that."
At a previous congregation where I served, there was a fine and conscientious young man who went off to college. He was a bright young man and we all expected him to do well, which he did. Near the end of his freshmen year and then continuing for several years after that I would get phone calls from him, sometimes at the most unusual times of the day, sometimes even in the middle of the night.
He would call me and tell me how terrified he was. He had been reading his Bible and saying his prayers and he was convinced that the devil was tempting him. He was certain because he had doubts about God and worries about his future that he was committing the "unforgivable sin." He wanted to me to listen to him and to tell him what he needed to do to get rid of these doubts. Then I would quote him the opening verse of this passage from Romans. "Alex, ... there is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. Alex, Paul is talking about you. Are you not baptized? Have you not received holy communion? Have not your parents, your friends at the church, and even me been telling you all these years that because of Christ you are special ... not only to all of us but to God? Trust me, Alex. It is true.
"You have admitted that you have trouble praying. But you pray. You admit you have doubts. But you continue to read the Bible and search for answers. You say that the devil is attacking you. But Alex, you have called me in the middle of the night. You wouldn't have done that, if you didn't have faith. The devil wouldn't bother with you if God had not made these promises to you. You wouldn't be bothered by doubt, if you didn't already have faith."
Sure enough, every time as we talked, I would eventually hear an audible sigh of relief. Alex would relax. He would say, "Pastor, thanks. I needed to hear that."
Alex had been trapped on the merry-go-round. There was no way he could get off by himself. He needed someone else to stop it for him. Only God could do it. God did it through me and my speaking of God's comforting word and my declaration of the startling announcement of the gospel.
So, when you wonder in the midst of your messes and burdens and griefs whether anyone cares; when you grieve when your life is falling apart and you cry out in the middle of the night, "How can this be?" You have tried your best and you still are stuck. You are trapped on the merry-go-round and can't get off. Let me ask you: Are you baptized? Have you received holy communion? Have you tasted the bread in your mouth and wine on your lips? Have you heard the announcement that "there is therefore no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus"? Then "you are not in the flesh; you are in the Spirit." God has stopped the merry-go-round. You can join Alex and all of the other saints, and breathe a sigh of relief. You can get off the merry-go-round! Amen.
1. James Nestingen and Gerhard Forde, Free To Be (Minneapolis: Augsburg Fortress, 1993), p. 163.