John 20:24-31 · Jesus Appears to Thomas
What Happens When We Can't Believe It?
John 20:24-31
Sermon
by Mark Ellingsen
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All three of our Bible lessons for today touch on themes that cannot help but direct our attention to last Sunday's celebration of the festival of Easter. (The Roman Catholic lectionary's first lesson [Acts 2:42-47] reminds us of the Easter festival, as its reference to the community shared among the early Christians is reminiscent of an active church member's joy in seeing a packed church on Easter Sunday.) I do not know about your feelings with certainty, but I suspect that last Sunday's worship service (what with it being Easter and with the church packed with our whole church family) felt as good to you as it did to me. It was a real spiritual high. For what was happening last Sunday, what with everybody happy and enjoying each other, was a lot like what was happening for the very first Christians when they actually encountered the Risen Lord (John 20:18; Luke 20:52-53; Mark 16:20; Matthew 28:9).

I know that is the way I felt last Sunday. With all of my brothers and sisters worshiping, not just because it was Easter and the thing to do, but here because you all believe in Jesus Christ, the experience made God a little more real for me. It was clear that I am not the only one who believes in Jesus' resurrection and in God's love. Obviously you and all your fellow worshipers believe in him, too! That realization felt so good to me. God and the resurrection really seemed a little more real. And when you feel that way it truly is a spiritual high.

However, what happens to you when you are not on that kind of spiritual high? What happens when God does not seem quite as real - those times when life has got you down in the dumps and you just do not feel its joy? Perhaps some of you are feeling kind of low like that right now and do not feel the joy about which I was speaking.

Of course, if you do not feel this kind of joy, if God's love does not seem to be getting through to you today, if it is all just so many words, do not hang your head in shame. Do not do that, because my time is coming, too - my time and everybody else's who is feeling good. Our time is coming, too - our time when life will not be quite as joyful and when God will not seem very real. Yes, our time is coming, too; there is no escaping spiritual death.

Spiritual death. Several times during Lent we talked about spiritual death - the feeling that we are just going through the motions, that life does not have much purpose, the feeling that God is not doing what we need from him. I am talking about those times when life is getting you down or when you. are not sure you believe. All of us have had these feelings. Have you not, too?

All of our Bible lessons for today have something to say about the problem of spiritual death and the struggle to believe. We start with the gospel and our second lesson. First, in our second lesson from the first letter of Peter (2:19-25), you have Peter writing to Christians who, to put it frankly, were going through a living hell. Life was really treating them rotten, sort of like it does for us sometimes (1 Peter 1:6; 3:13-14, 16-17; 4:12; 5:10). And in the middle of all the suffering being inflicted upon them it was only natural that the people to whom Peter wrote would start to wonder why. Why? Why would a loving God put me through all that? I do not feel his love; life is too rough for that. (See 1 Peter 2:7-8.)

Does it sound familiar? Do such feelings and doubts hit home? They sure do for me. In my own life, you see, I know that the times when I feel the most distant from God are the times when I do not feel good about life or myself. I cannot feel God's love on those occasions, and so it is sort of difficult to believe in him. I cannot see what he is doing in my life, cannot see how he is helping me, and so on those occasions I do not feel like helping him and his church. My prayer life suffers, and I start to feel spiritually dead. Christianity is not very important to me then. I just do not feel like it, and the investment I would need to put in it.

"Prove it to me, God! Prove it to me." That is what I am really saying in those moments of apathy and hopelessness. "Make my life good; give me peace, then I will believe and love you, God." Does it sound familiar? Do you hear a little bit of yourself in my confession of sin?

We all sound a lot like "doubting Thomas" in our gospel lesson for today. "Unless I see in his hands the print of the nails, and place my finger in the mark of the nails ... I will not believe (John 20:25)." That is what Thomas said, when he had missed sharing the experience the other disciples had had with the Risen Lord. "Until I feel your love, God, until you give me joy and make life good, until then, God, I do not want too much to do with you."

That is our version of Thomas' doubts. However, we do not have Thomas' "guts." We do not usually bring our doubts and questions directly to God and our fellow Christians like Thomas did (John 20:25). (Thomas, you see, was very much the disciple with a questioning faith; he was the kind of believer whose faith was enriched by asking questions. We know that from other stories in John's gospel [14:5]. Thomas had a lively, questing faith [John 11:16].) No, we are more subtly dishonest in hiding the weaknesses in our faith. We tend to "cop-out," to avoid involvement, to become slack in prayer and worship, because after all, we do not feel any better after engaging in such activities. I just do not feel it any more. I feel spiritually dead, so why bother?

All of us have times in our life when we feel this way, right? I refer to those times when it is just not happening between you and God, when life is not very sweet or at least not that beautiful. Of course, we do.

Have you noticed where the problem lies? There is a pattern to our spiritual malaise. The problem is that we are spending too much time, like Thomas (and perhaps like the Christians to whom Peter wrote), being hung up on our feelings. Thomas did not feel that Jesus could possibly rise from the dead; consequently he did not believe what the other disciples told him.

The Christians to whom Peter was writing could not feel God's love, what with all the torture that they were enduring. Too many times we do not feel like worshiping God or loving other people, and so we do not. We really are too hung-up on our own feelings, on ourselves, for our own (and our neighbors') good.

How about it, folks? This train of thought makes a lot of sense to me. I know that when it comes to being happy in life, when it is a matter of my relationship with God, a lot of times I am my own worst enemy. I am too hung-up on myself and how I feel, and I need to get away from myself. That is how it was with "doubting" Thomas and for the Christians to whom Peter was writing. They needed to get away from themselves and their feelings. We learn a lot about ourselves and our way of behaving from them.

How do we get out of this mess? How can we awake from spiritual death? How can we find joy in life? How can we get a fresh start? All three (or two) of our assigned Bible lessons today give us a simple answer: Believe in the Risen Lord. Hang on, forget your feelings, and have faith in Jesus Christ (John 20:26-29; 1 Peter 1:3-7; Acts 2:22-24, 31-32).

How can I do it? How can I believe in Jesus' resurrection and in God's love for me? How can I believe it when I do not feel his love or when I do not feel any joy in life?

Martin Luther once tried to answer these questions, and what he said makes a lot of sense to me. It is what our Bible lessons are all trying to say. At any rate, Luther's point was that sometimes "feeling is against faith and faith is against feeling." Here is exactly how he put it one time in one of his Easter sermons: "To this I reply: I have often said before that feeling and faith are two different things. It is the nature of faith not to feel, to lay aside reason and close the eyes, to submit absolutely to the Word, and follow it in life and death. Feeling however does not extend beyond that which may be apprehended by reason and the senses, which may be heard, seen, felt and known by the outward senses. For this cause feeling is opposed to faith and faith is opposed to feeling."1

Feeling is against faith, and faith is against feeling. Sometimes I do not feel loved; sometimes I do not feel joy; sometimes life seems pretty meaningless and my faith feels empty; but the resurrection faith proclaims that I am loved, that life is full of meaning! Our faith is certain, Martin Luther once said, because "it snatches us away from ourselves and places us outside ourselves." We do not depend on ourselves, but are snatched away from ourselves and our fears. We do not have to depend on ourselves, our own strength, and our own experience. We do not have to depend on ourselves because we are dependent on something outside of ourselves, that is, dependent on the promises of God.2

This is what Peter is telling us in our second lesson. This is what Jesus is telling Thomas and us in our gospel lesson. "People," they are saying, "don't get so hung-up on yourselves that you forget God's love. Perhaps you do not feel that love right now, but that does not mean that he is not loving you. Perhaps it does not feel like he is making much of a difference in your life, but that does not mean that he is not. He is giving you joy, even when you do not feel it."

Our gospel lesson (and the second lesson) tells us, "look people, sometimes you have to believe against the way you feel." Especially this is Jesus' point to Thomas, when he calls Thomas and us to faith even though we do not directly feel (or experience) his resurrection (John 21:29; cf. 1 Peter 1:6-8). It is not what you feel that counts; it is what God does and says that counts.

Of course, this is not the whole story. Our Bible lessons for today make another point. Praise the Lord for it! For if the only way to be raised out of our spiritual doldrums were to depend on your own personal faith, then we would all be in trouble. None of us as individuals has that strong of a faith. But together we do!

These reflections bring us back to the beginning of this sermon and to those good feelings I had when I worshiped with all of you last week. It brings me back to that feeling of closeness that I had to God last Sunday, because I knew that all of you and our absent friends, not just me, but all of you believe in him, too!

All three of the Bible lessons are proclaiming this message. All of them testify to the way in which our faith is strengthened by each other. It is no accident that Thomas came to believe in the resurrection when he was in the company of all the rest of the disciples (John 21:26-29). Jesus is usually most present and reveals himself when his people are assembled in community. And it is no accident that Thomas' doubts about the resurrection were initiated because he was not sharing in fellowship with the other disciples (but was off by himself) the first time that Jesus appeared to them (John 20:24-25).

The same Word is indirectly proclaimed in our second lesson (1 Peter 1:3-9). By themselves, the Christians to whom Peter was writing may have been floundering in their sufferings. But Peter and his cohorts reached out to comfort them. These Christians of Asia Minor to whom Peter wrote were comforted and strengthened by their brothers and sisters in Christ.

The message is also delivered in our first lesson. Peter is preaching on the first day of Pentecost to various Jews in Jerusalem. He proclaims Christ's resurrection (Acts 2:14ff). He delivers his sermon flanked by all of the other disciples (no doubt for support; see Acts 2:14). Then he even concludes his testimony to the resurrection by noting that all of his fellow believers make the same testimony (Acts 2:32). Peter is clearly gaining strength and courage from the fact that he shares a common faith with the other disciples. (Note for those using the Roman Catholic lectionary's first lesson [Acts 2:42-47]. This lesson recounts how the followers of Jesus, just after his ascension and Pentecost, shared everything. The following observations about the text could be made: In the very first church, the early Christians shared everything; they did everything together; they leaned on each other.)

This kind of sharing, this kind of leaning on each other, is the purpose of the church. It is why God created the church - so that we Christians could lean on each other when the going gets rough, and when it is hard to believe in a loving God (1 Corinthians 12:24b-26).

Perhaps I do not feel joy, excitement, love and enthusiasm about the faith. Yet when I am down, if I can lean on some of you, on some of you who are feeling joy in life, feeling loved by God, and excited about it, then it is just a bit easier for me to fight my feelings of apathy, sadness and my weak faith. Being with people who are excited, feel God's love, and are happy about it, makes God a lot more real. Some of those good feelings are liable to rub off on the rest of us. Oh, of course, when the rest of you need it, and we weak ones are stronger, then you can lean on us.3

My friends, this is the purpose of the church. This is what worship, congregational service projects, church meetings and fellowship events are all about. They aim to facilitate our sharing and leaning on each other. They aim to get us so enmeshed in God's love and the Easter joy that goes with it (to make us experience the new life that Christ has given us), that pretty soon we forget our feelings - so that without even recognizing it we begin to feel good. All of our Bible lessons for today are pointing us to what is happening right now among us - to the church. The cure for unhappiness and for spiritual death is right here, on mornings like this and in service projects like our congregation conducts. It is all here waiting for us to participate.

It is indeed God's gift to me that you really believe in him, too. It makes believing in him and his love a little easier for all of us. Praise God that the new life that he has given us at Easter and in our baptisms includes all of us (all the faithful) together! Such an insight about our common faith makes me feel good after all. Thank God that he has given us each other!

C.S.S. Publishing Co., PREPARATION AND MANIFESTATION, by Mark Ellingsen