Every once in awhile I am surprised by a film which offers a message that I never expected. When I checked out Brubaker, an old Robert Redford film from the late '70s, from my local video store I expected some romantic adventure from one of Hollywood's biggest stars. That's not at all what I got.
Instead I saw a wonderful and thought-provoking portrayal of human nature. Brubaker turned out to be a spellbinding film about the futile attempt of an enlightened prison warden to reform a hopelessly corrupt prison. Brubaker was the name of the warden, played by Robert Redford, who had dramatic success in reforming a prison, but then was run out of his job by a prison board which didn't want the system to change.
Brubaker was enormously successful in reforming his prison for several reasons. The most startling and controversial aspect of his reform program was the way he sought to treat his prisoners. Other wardens had only concentrated on controlling the behavior of the prisoners. The prisoners were often demeaned, humiliated, and treated as if they were nothing more than animals. Brubaker treated his prisoners much differently. He insisted that if they were treated like animals, they would behave like animals. To behave like respectable and responsible human beings, they needed to have what every respectable and responsible human being must have: self-esteem. Brubaker gave it to them and it transformed the prison.
There is one scene which especially illustrates how Brubaker used the prisoners' need for self-esteem to reform the prison. As the new warden, one of the first things he insists on creating is a council made up of prisoners which would govern the affairs of the prison. The election has just been completed and the council is meeting for the first time outside the warden's office. It is a motley group of characters. They all sit in silence around the table waiting for something to happen. The time drags on. The silence, so it seems, lasts for an eternity. There are only empty stares. No one says a word.
In walks Brubaker with his nose buried in some papers. He seems unconcerned with the meeting. Suddenly he stops and asks, "What are you guys waiting for? You won the election. This is your council."
There is still only silence. A look of nervousness, almost fear, is exchanged among several of the prisoners. Finally, one of the grisly characters interrupts the silence and timidly asks, "Aren't you going to tell us what we have to do?"
Brubaker is shocked. Then he smiles and laughs. "No, this is your council. You decide what you want to do. Now, I'm busy. I have got to go in my office and make a few phone calls. You guys carry on."
Brubaker briskly disappears into his office.
Now the prisoners are really shocked. They are petrified. They don't know what to do. No one speaks. The silence drags on for a few more minutes. Finally, one of the prisoners speaks up, one of the prisoners who obviously doesn't have much use for Brubaker and his newfangled ideas. "Why don't we just forget the whole thing. We all know that The Man isn't really going to let this council do anything." The other prisoners nod in agreement.
It seems as though a weight has been lifted from them. Just as they begin to rise from their chairs to leave, Brubaker steps out of his office. "Where are you guys going? Is the meeting over? What have you decided to do?"
Again the prisoners look surprised and befuddled. They can't believe it. This guy is for real. The council is no joke. It really is going to be able to change things in the life of the prison.
The prisoners slowly sit down at the table once again. This time Brubaker sits down with them. But he doesn't sit at the head of the table. He sits off in one corner. Again there is silence, but only for a few moments.
One of the inmates blurts out, "About these dirty uniforms ..."
And so began the transformation of the prison, a transformation that was almost too good to be true. Brubaker gave those prisoners something which no other warden had ever given them: self-esteem. He thought enough of them to let them elect their own council to clean up some of the problems in the prison. Throughout the film Brubaker constantly makes the point (which ran totally contrary to the usual philosophy of the penal system) that these criminals don't respect others because they don't respect themselves. If someone showed some confidence in them, if someone would enable them to take some responsibility and gain some self-esteem, they just might start treating others better. For when you can't stand yourself, you can't stand anyone else either.
The need for self-esteem is one of the deepest and most universal of all human needs. Educators, psychologists, criminologists, and sociologists would probably all agree that when someone's dignity, sense of worth, self-image, self-esteem are taken away, his ability to function as a productive human being is severely crippled. Why do you think abused children so often grow up to abuse their children or to become criminals? They have no self-esteem.
Do you remember the cheerful and goofy guru of weight loss, Richard Simmons? Why is he not only an advocate of weight loss but also such a cheerleader and promoter of positive thinking? You aren't going to be able to shed those pounds until you start feeling good about yourself. Just think of someone who is successful in life? Doesn't he or she have a healthy self-image?
Just think of someone who is often depressed and unhappy. Could it not be because they think so little of themselves? Without self-esteem it is so difficult to give, to love, to care, even to trust anyone else.
Jesus is not blind to this human need. Throughout his ministry, Jesus is often reaching out to fill those whose self-esteem is low. When the scribe in today's Gospel asks Jesus, "Which commandment is the first of all?" He is actually asking a question about what is most important in life. He could just as easily have asked, "What must I do more than anything else to be happy and satisfied? What must I do to feel like somebody, to have some self-esteem?"
Jesus' answer is a quote from today's First Reading: "Love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your mind, and with all your strength."
When Jesus talks about this kind of complete love of God, he is describing what it is like to trust in God no matter what, to have faith in God regardless of the circumstances. It is like a child completely believing in his parents no matter what. It is like a wife trusting completely that her husband will be faithful to her no matter what. When a wife trusts her husband, when a child can count on his parents, it gives them a sense of confidence, assurance -- self-esteem. Believing that the ultimate author of all creation values and treasures even little, insignificant me can't help but give me a good self-image. And, as Brubaker proved in his prison reform, people who respect themselves will respect others.
Jesus makes a similar point when he insists that love of God is inseparable from love of neighbor. One who loves God will have a sense of self-esteem. He who has self-esteem, he who loves himself, can love his neighbor. When one believes that "God doesn't make no garbage," he won't treat other people as if they were garbage either.
But believing in God with all our heart, soul, mind, and strength is no easy task. We know that from the poor way we often treat others. When we have low self-esteem, when we do not think highly of ourselves, when we have had a bad day, when we are down in the dumps, then it is easy to strike back in anger at others. Then it is easy to cut someone else down to size with slander and gossip. When we are insecure about ourselves, that is when we need to grab all the power and success that we can. When we are unsure about ourselves, then is when we recklessly pursue one pleasure after another regardless of the consequences. We think that this is the only way to feel good about ourselves. Often the braggart and egotist is actually acting to overcome his sense of self-doubt. Maybe if he boasts enough, not only will others but perhaps even he will begin to believe that he is someone worthwhile.
This haunting voice of self-doubt and insecurity the biblical tradition and the teaching of the church has called "sin." Sin begins with our inability to love God, from the shame and self-doubt that leaves us hiding in the bushes, all too aware of our nakedness, certain of our unworthiness, just like those first sinners, Adam and Eve. The Augsburg Confession describes sin as being "without fear and love of God." Isn't that one of the ultimate consequences of hell: living without any sense of self-esteem, trapped in the depths of our despair and self-hatred? Such hell is not just in eternity. There can be "hell on earth" right now.
When we confess our sins, we are not just acknowledging that we have done something "naughty." We are not just talking about having eaten some forbidden fruit. Living in sin means that we can never seem to shed the suspicion that we are not good enough. Living in sin means that we always find the lie of the serpent making sense: "God doesn't care about you, so you had better take things into your own hands!" Living in sin means that we are eternally in search of self-esteem and never able to capture it. Living in sin means that we can never bring ourselves to trust God, to love God with all our heart, soul, mind, and strength and thereby to love our neighbors as ourselves.
The scribe seems to know all the right answers. He knows the importance of love of God and love of neighbor. Jesus compliments him for this. He is not far from the kingdom. But he is still not yet there. Something is still missing. That something is the ability to follow through. There is no person on earth who can follow through and keep this command to love God and neighbor. There is no person on earth who can do it because there is no person not tainted by the curse of Eden, because there is no person this side of Genesis 3 whose self-esteem is uncracked.
The Scriptures and the Christian tradition boldly announce to the world that this kind of self-esteem, this conviction that we are indeed somebody, even in the eyes of God, must be given to us. It must be bestowed upon us. We can only receive it. The mission of the church proclaims to the world that what we cannot ever seem to attain for ourselves has been given to us by God. It is a gift. It is grace.
You people sitting here this morning, this is the Good News that I have to tell you today! You can love God with all your heart, soul, mind, and strength. You can trust God. You can cling to God because he clings to you! God loves you, even though, in spite of, the doubts, the fears, the worries, the sweaty hands, the frightening dreams in the middle of the night, the cracks that seem more like fissures in your self-esteem, are always lurking around the next corner. Even though you can never shed them, God still loves you. God forgives you in spite of it all. You are the apple of his eye.
Stand up. There is no need to slump. This is no time to slouch, no time to hide in the back row, no time to try to slip away unnoticed. You are the crown of God's creation. You are his beloved sons and daughters.
Given the flaws of which we are all too aware, given the blemishes of which we are perpetually embarrassed, given the sins of which we are continually ashamed, this seems to be an incredible and outrageous claim for the church to make. It would be were it not for the one who is making this incredible claim on our behalf. He comes with the highest authorization. He is Jesus. He is God's very own Son. He is the one who comes among us to make public the secret, to reveal what has been all too hidden in the pain and ambiguity of this fallen world: God loves you and me. God forgives us. We are his beloved sons and daughters. We can have self-esteem.
There is probably no other action in the church's liturgical and worship life which so dramatically reveals that our self-esteem is purely a gift of God, that we don't have to do anything to prove ourselves, than the sacrament of Holy Baptism.
A few moments ago we baptized tiny, little Molly. Molly is an infant. She is utterly dependent. She can do nothing for herself. All she can do is eat and sleep and gurgle and laugh and cry. When water was poured over her at the font, when the name of God was spoken, it was not just the pastor acting. It was almighty God himself acting. God declared before us, before the world, and most of all before Molly that Jesus died and rose again for her.
And because of this washing with the waters of baptism, Jesus' fate is now hers. Molly has a new identity. She has a new destiny. Just like Jesus who went before her, Molly has the promise of the creator of heaven and earth. That creator will never abandon her. That creator will always love her. That creator will always welcome her. That creator is her "heavenly Father," her "daddy." Just like Jesus trusted his daddy all the way to the cross and was not disappointed, so also for Molly. Nothing or no one can ever separate her from the love of her new heavenly Father in Jesus Christ.
Because of this baptism, Molly will always be "somebody" in the eyes of God. There will never be any question that she is the apple of God's eye. This powerful promise, this eternal assurance can go a long way in comforting Molly. Every time her value is called into question, every time she doubts her self-worth, she can be reassured by what has happened here today. Molly, you are baptized! God esteems you. You can esteem yourself.
But today is only a beginning. From this day on it is the job of her parents, her sponsors, her family, her church to keep on reminding her for the rest of her life who she is, whose she is. Because of this "washing with the word" she will always be "somebody." There will be much to challenge, attack, and call into question what has been given her today. But because of her new identity, she can always be sure of who she is. She can be confident. She can have self-esteem.
Building on this new identity, she can dare to be different from those around her. She doesn't need to lust for the applause of her peers or the admiration of her neighbors. She doesn't need to be burdened by her failures. She doesn't need to hide in the back row. She doesn't need to hide in the anonymity of the crowd. Instead she can stand tall. She is righteous. She is someone she can be proud of. She is someone who can dare to love her neighbor as herself. Why? Because Jesus died for her.
And what is true for Molly is also true for us. As we are busy nurturing young saints like Molly in the promise of her baptism, we can also be about the business of reminding and reassuring one another of what God has offered us in our baptism. When that baptismal water was poured over us, we were connected to the life, death, and resurrection of Jesus. Therefore, we are somebody! We know who we are! We can have self-esteem!
If God can be this proud of us, then we surely can be proud of ourselves. We can have self-esteem."